dont tell me modest

i am telling myself " bo bo, modest modest" should i be? i dont have conflict resolution strategy for that. but i am crying for i cant not be modest. i am not algorithmatic man but heuristic guy. things are burning in my brain. new things are coming born but they are not ripe yet in my mind. i dont want to design something which i cant analyse. but i am doing them in my exam. i command myself to throw all my personality into what i am doing. but why the world is always telling me modest modest. i hate that.